For the
past little while I've been thinking I needed to make some changes in my life…
had no clue where to start. A couple questions always run through my mind; what
should I do, who should I even talk to about it and honestly does anyone even
really care? The past couple months I've had a lot on my plate for those of you
who know me well you know what I mean by this. If you don’t scroll up and read
the past couple blogs I suppose. I've thought for a bit now that I guess God was giving me a couple of messages
during this last roller coaster of life I had. For one slow down, I've always
kept myself busy running from one task to another, not always enjoying the little
things in life. As I've sat around with my recovery time I’ve learned to enjoy
the little things in life, such as rereading a book I love, going on a fall
drive with my best friend to see the leaves changing, taking a walk at 11:00
p.m. at night with some of my favorite boys just to get hot chocolate afterword,
seeing my other best friends baby grow up and enjoying time with my family even
if it’s just sitting on my bed talking with them.
Second,
people come into your life for a reason and they also leave your life for a
reason. Who knows it could be to challenge you, to help you, but in the end you
will be the one writing the story that everyone else will hear in years to
come. So make sure it’s one you want to tell.
Another
thing I've learned try new things. Life is seriously way too short to not go
out and do the things you want to do. For example… I’m scared of heights, this boy I've known forever asked me on a date and I decided I should go. I ended up going to
his tree house and he told me I needed to climb up there I was thinking
seriously.. I am going to die this is not OK Obviously… I didn't die and I've been back to the tree house at least 4 times. I encourage anyone go out and
fall in love with something whether it be a person an activity just go do it. One of my best friends is a perfect example of
this she called me the other day needed me to come to her house; she told me
she is pretty sure she found that person for her. She’s known him for a week but I can tell you
I love when she talks about it because she gets a big smile on her face and she
cannot get it off. So who am I to judge what she chooses to do, it’s her life
her decision and I’m going to support her all the way. You can’t sit back on your couch thinking why didn't I do that last night, or even better in 50 years from now don’t look back on your
life and regret not doing the things you wanted to do.
One last
thing to wrap up the night; I’m not a highly religious individual. I have my
beliefs just as well as the next person; but I think my biggest lesson that I
needed to learn thus far is that I wasn't being punished when this trial was
put into my life. I've heard a couple of times lately; God doesn't put things
into your life that you can’t handle.
God put this summer trial into my life to make me stronger, I've made my
mistakes as well as the next person but in the end all we really need to do is
take a step back out of our life and realize things aren't always about
us. Don’t judge a person by the choices
they have made, because you have no clue what plan they were given, and what choices
they had to choose from. All you need to
know is that when the time comes you’ll have choices to make too. In the end if
you don’t think anyone else will understand you always have the big guy
upstairs. That’s the biggest lesson I think I needed to learn. So as I start to make these changes to my
life, there will be the people who come in and out of my life, there will be
new things to try, and in the end I just have to believe that the big guy
upstairs will always have my back.
